First Love...

Sometimes, I'm so busy in pursuing what I need to do, I often forget my first love.
Recently, praise and prayer just seemed to be dry. And if it feels dry to me, I'm sure that my leaders and my students can feel it to.

When it comes to picking songs for praise, I find myself being frustrated. All the songs sounds the same, we've done these songs over and over, there is nothing new.
I never felt that way before.

When I pray in prayer groups, it takes a long time for me to actually get the words out.

Then, this morning, lying on the couch and looking out the window, it hit me, I forgot my first love.

I forgot that when we sing praise, it's singing a love song to God, for God. It shouldn't really matter that the songs sound the same or we've done it over and over. It's for God. As long as our hearts in the right place, and God focused... that's all the matters.

In the past two weeks, I've been so busy, I forgot to just spend time with the Bible and read and meditate.


It's scary how pastors are so caught up in the work of the church and helping others with their spiritual lives, that they completely ignore their own.

I'm glad that staring out the window and seeing the trees and the sky, I had this somewhat epiphany. I picked up on Jeremiah where I left off too long ago.

Came across this verse:
Although our sins testify against us, O Lord, do something for the sake of your name
Jeremiah 15:7a

It just reminded me the faithfulness of God. That God will remain faithful to me and my church, even though I have been unfaithful to Him over and over.

I laid back down on the couch, and stared out the same window.

I was reminded that I briefly lost track of my first love.

I fell asleep on the couch and woke up hearing my wife (who has a beautiful voice) and her friend (who's visiting) practicing some praise songs.

I woke up feeling rested and renewed.

God is good.